2010, ഏപ്രിൽ 29, വ്യാഴാഴ്‌ച

Love Quotes



My true love is as cuddly as a teddy bear,
and so precious that I won't share.

My true love is as fashionable as a peacock,
someone to easily pick out in a flock.

My true love is as protective as a mama bear.
Anyone that tries to hurt me better have a good prayer!

My true love is as sweet as honey,
with jokes and comments that are hilariously funny!

My true love is one of a kind,
and I thank God that my true love is mine!

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Before I met you, my heart was locked.

Hurt by past relationships, the key was lost.

An angel was sent from up above.

I was guided back to life through your love.

You showed me trust and devotion.

I have never felt such wonderful emotions.

I now enjoy life to the fullest.

And I understand that I am blessed.

Now I have the happiness that I crave.

You've given me the courage to be brave.

Thank you for opening my eyes to a brand new world.


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Smiling is infectious; you catch it like the flu,
When someone smiled at me today I started smiling too.


I passed around the corner and someone saw my grin,
When he smiled I realized I'd passed it on to him.

I thought about that smile, and realized its worth:
A single smile, just like mine, could travel round the Earth.


So if you feel a smile begin, don't leave it undetected...
Let's start an epidemic quick and get the world infected!!

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Don't ever be reluctant
to show your feelings when
you're happy, give in to it.
When you're not, live with it.

Don't ever be afraid to
try to make things better you might
be surprised at the results.

Don't ever take the weight of the
world on your shoulders.
Don't ever feel threatened by the future,
take life one day at a time.

Don't ever feel guilty about the past
what's done is done.
Learn from any mistakes you might have made.

Don't ever feel that you are alone
there is always somebody there
for you to reach out to.

Don't ever forget that you can achieve
so many of the things you can imagine. ...
It's not as hard as it seems.

Don't ever stop loving
don't ever stop believing,
don't ever stop dreaming your dreams.

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You have touched me in many ways,

and I just wanted to say...

That you make my day!!

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Because of you.
I have hope for tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
I can laugh at my mistakes
I can greet each new day with a smile
I can take chances
The sky seems bluer
I can step out with confidence
I walk with a spring in my step
I have a song in my heart
My burdens seem lighter
Each day is special
I can be the person I was meant to be
THANK YOU



Treasure In My Life

There are treasures in one's life that can't
be seen, can't be touched, are impossible to
measure or estimate their value......
They can not be bought, yet are given for free.
These precious gifts have been given to me and
have made a difference in my life through the
friend I have found in you.
Understanding----that we all have different ways.
Laughter----at the times we have shared.
Patience----with my changing moods.
Your friendship is among the treasures of my life-
growing as we grow, changing for the better,
yet remaining a steady part of my days.
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"I Love You"
I love you, not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you, not only for what you have made of
yourself, but for what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out;
I love you for putting your hand into my heaped-up
heart and passing over all the foolish, weak things
that you can't help dimly seeing there, and for drawing
out into the light all the beautiful belongings that no
one else had looked quite far enough to find.
I love you because you are helping me to make
of the lumber of my life not a tavern, but a temple;
Out of the works of my every day not a reproach,
but a song.
I love you because you have done more than
any creed could have done to make me good,
and more than any fate could have done
to make me happy.
You have done it without a touch,
without a word, without a sign.
You have done it by being yourself.
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Walk With Me In Love
Walk with me in love,
Talk to me about what you can not say to others,
Laugh with me when you feel silly,
Cry with me when you are sad,
Share with me all the beautiful things in life,
Fight with me against all the ugliness of life,
Stand with me and hear my plea,
Create with me the dreams that we may follow,
Have fun with me in whatever we may do,
Work with me towards common goals,
Dance with me to the rhythm of our love,
Walk with me throughout life,
Let's hug each other at every step
Into our journey of forever!
I Love You,,,Always and Forever Yours


Our love like the rose on the vine,
It sparkled with the morning dew,
It had its thorns,
Yet blossomed and grew.

As with many beautiful things
we take for granted life and love.
Let not another day go by that
we do not share the wonder
of that love.

Let the love sparkle with the dew,
cast aside the thorns and make our
life so happy and new.
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A Friend's Heart

You are in my heart and soul,
the inspiration of my dream,
the best friends a person could have.

The many dreams and moments we
have spent together will never
be forgotten, the times of pain,
as well as the happy ones.

We've shared our laughther, love,
and you let me give you a few of
my tears.

Each day knowing you seems brighter,
and each moment seems more precious.
I'll love you always and call you
MY FRIEND!

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Stars In The Heavens

Some times at night
I look up at the stars
and wonder what you're doing...
I think of the wonderful time
we had together and the wonderful
times yet to come, and I want to
tell you in person how much
I love you and miss you!
Then I find the brightest star,
and I wish that you weren't so far away...
Just like I am wishing right now.
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The lights are out, as I prepare to slip
Between the sheets I notice the soft
Warm moonlight streaming through
The window above my bed.

I pause and smile thinking of you and
The love we shared. I settle in clutching an
Extra pillow to my chest laying in this huge
Bed all alone. My thoughts drifting over the
Days events, the people I have talked to and those
I have missed. Things I did and things still that
Need to be done.

I think of how much I love you, how much
I miss you. I wonder if you are feeling
Well and doing all right. Smiling, I think
Of how I have watched your eyes light up in
Excitement, the look of anticipation in them.
Remembering the look of your smile as it crossed
Your face. How you made me feel so loved.
I think of the times we were together and the
Love we have shared as I continue to drift
in sleep.

During the night I feel you quietly crawl
In bed next to me, snuggling in, your warmth
Easing my fears, I feel your soft caresses and
Hear the words of tendernes and endearments.
Smiling I bask in the warmth and contentment of
Your love, then quietly continue to dream those
dreams we hoped to share.

Morning comes once again, as I slowly begin
To wake a tear slides down my cheek as I
Realize it was just a dream.
You are not there, and neither are
my dreams.

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I find that there are fewer places
That are more comforting than when talking with you-
I find that there are fewer sounds
That are more soothing than your voice-
I find that there are fewer moments
That are more relaxing than my times with you.
I find that there are fewer memories
That I hold closer than the ones we share.
I find there are fewer thoughts
Which aren't filled completely with you.
I find that there are fewer hours
That I'm lonely since I've found you-
I'm finding I never had a doubt
with this friendship we share
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Special times, special places,
special friends together...
The moments pass so quickly,
but the memories last forever.

We come to this place together,
to share but a short time.
Time and space may separate,
but distance cannot come
between us.


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The Wait


I woke to a realization today,
My life seems to hold very little.
Time seems to be galloping yet going so slow.
I find myself waiting to see you again.
Is life going to always be this way?
I find myself walking in a state of dilemma.
My dreams and memories are all I need.
For now it has to be-
Until one day there will be,
A time and a place that you will need me.
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Do I Love You


Can you see how much I love you
Is it showing in my eyes?
Can you tell by the things I do
Or when we talk...all my sighs?
There's no way to conceal,
What I'm feeling for you now.
All I feel this love is real
You stole my heart somehow!
The way you're so romantic,
You're sexy and you're smart.
The way you tease with antics
I love each and every part.
Your eyes can put me in a trance,
Your voice sweeter than an angels' song.
All it takes is just one glance,
And I'm restless all night long.
You're my honey, my sweetie,my baby
You know you are my friend.
If I'm lucky, well then maybe
Our love will never end!

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I sit here by the window
Staring out at the world
A world that seems to no
Longer have a place for me

Then suddenly it comes...
Memories of times before
All leave a bittersweet taste
Once pleasure now turned to pain

Waves of ache flood my soul
My whole being longs for you still
I stare out the window and notice
Specks of rain where sun had shone
Knowing that the angels too know of
My pain

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A Gift of Rest

For a mother that works hard as two
A gift of rest I give to you
A pair of slippers to place on your feet
Some peace and quiet you will greet
A novel for you to read and enjoy
The serene moment that brings you joy
The bubbling fragrance to put in your bath
To lead you down a relaxing path
And finally the tea for you to drink
To clean your mind and help you think
This gift of rest I give to you
To say "Thanks Mom," and "I love you!"

The beginning of love, is to let those we love be perfectly themselves and not twist them with our own image -- otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them? The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of every-thing...they just make the most out of everything that comes their way.

The best kind of friend is the one you can sit on a porch with, never saying a word and then walk away, feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

Don't go for looks -- it can deceive.

Don't go for money -- even wealth fades away.

Go for someone who makes you smile, because only a smile makes a dark day seem bright. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched their lives.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance... and you find out you still care for that person. Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, those who still believe, even though they have been betrayed and those who still love even though they've been hurt before. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people, before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But, what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past ... you can't go on in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in Their hearts. But, if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things that you would love to hear, but you never hear it from the person you want to. Don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with their heart.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you are smiling and everyone around you is crying.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens. But often we look so long at the closed door, that we don't see the one which has just been opened for us.

Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too. A sad thing about life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you ... only to find out in the end, that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone ... an hour to like someone...a day to love someone...but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

Love is over

I am not going to care about
what you are saying
I am going to love like I never did before
Please do not interrupt this blissful phase of my life
I am going to give my all to him
So what are you going to do
Are you going to scream at me continuously
So you will blast my ears deaf
So when are you going to
Wake up and see that I don't love you
Can you just leave me alone
I want nothing to do with you anymore
Please just let me go
Haunting my life like a sticky ghost
Can you learn to let go
I want nothing to do with you anymore
It is time that you realise
Love cannot be forced
I am not going to waste my time explaining no more
Just leave me alone
So what are you going to do
Are you going to cry for me eternally
So you will cry your eyes blind
So when are you going to realise that it is all over
Can you just release your poor soul
Stop all your nonsense at this moment
At this moment my mind is with him
My soul just longs for him
So please just let me go
Love can be a painful thing
But you must learn to let go

Take me to your Heart

Take me to heart and soul
Give me your hand and hold me tight
Show me what love is all about
And be my guide in style.

Every song is a cry for love
All kiss is a taste to remember
Every seconds beat my heart,
Knowing that i need you

Do take pieces of my heart
And set straight and right
For i know love is now and forever
Show me what love is, cos i dont have a clue

A star kiss for you
Every Night and morning
Feel my worlds of love
And take me to your heart.
By love, God made the universe;
By love, God created the earth;
By love, God made man and woman;
By love, God gave them each a soul.

By love, God cares for human needs;
By love, God watches over man;
By love, God gave Ten Commandments;
By love, God punishes man too.

By love, God made Heaven for man;
By love, God sent His son to earth;
By love, God had Christ die on cross;
By love, God nullified sins’ rod;
By love, God waits to embrace man!

The God of love made man with love;
But man with sins questions Him, ‘How? ’


When it hurts to look back and...!
I am scared to look ahead...!
I just look beside me and...!
I know you'll be there...!
because we love each other...!
Far more than love itself...!!


You care for me in all the ways...!
I want and need so much...!
I have felt your warmth and tenderness with every word
and touch...!

Your love is the song in my heart...!
The sunshine in my sky...!
The promise of my world...!
The centre of my universe...! !


I Promised my Heart...that this was the last time...!
I would hurt it...and you came along...Again I broke a
promise...!

As long as I have waited....and as long as I
know.....that I will wait.
I still cant seem to change.....how I feel for you.

For it was not into my ear you whispered... but my
heart...!
it was not my feelings you played...it was my soul!!

Sometimes I wonder what...life would be like if I
never meet you...
because one year down the line...I have never loved
anybody else...
as much as I love you...I love you more than life
itself.


Only true Love Understands. ..The Language Of Our
Eyes...
Only True Love Knows When...These Eyes Hide The
Tears...
Deep Within And How To...Make These Tears Die!!

You are my dear...together we have nothing to fear...!
For together we will always be... I'm so lucky if you
chose me...!
My heart forever will be true...!
I think....... I'm in LOVE with you..!!


Forgive my eyes for admiring you...you stole my
heart...!
From the moment you looked at me...call me crazy, call
me insane...!
Each time my heart beats...it calls out your name...!!

Before meeting you I was nothing...!
You taught me everything.. .!
Now I have become something... !
But I need you and your love in each and in every
moment of my life...!!


Some broken hearts never mend...!
Some memories never end...!
Some tears will never dry...!
But my love for you never dies...!!

Immature Love says: I Love you because I need you.
Mature Love says: I need you because I Love you...!!


Your love is the song in my heart.
The sunshine in my sky.
The promise of my world.
The centre of my universe...! !

Do you love me or do you not?
You told me once, but I forgot,
so tell me now and tell me true,
so I can tell you...I Love You!
Of all the girls I've ever met,
you are the one I won't forget.
And if I die before you do,
I'll go to heaven and wait for you.
If you are not there by Judgment Day,
I'll know you went the other way.
I'll give the angels back their wings,
and risk the loss of everything.
Just to prove my love is true,
I'll go to hell, just to be with you..!!


What is love without two people in it?
What is a world with out people?
What am I without you?
I love and miss you.

The essential sadness is to go through life without
loving.
But it would be almost equally sad to leave this world
without ever telling those you love.


If you love something set it free.
if it returns it was meant to be.
if it does not then it was never yours to begin with.

"If a hug represented how much I loved you...!
I would hold you in my arms forever...!!


We do not love people because they are beautiful,
But they seem beautiful to us because we love them...!

Love cannot be explained...
It can only be experienced. ..!


Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt
But it's the only way to live life completely.. .!!

Never Let Love gets the best of you...!
But U should always try to get the...
BEST OF LOVE...!!

If U have the courage to love...!
You have the courage to suffer...!!!


Love is when you take away
the feeling, the passion, the romance..
and you find out..
you still care for the person...!!

My Last Goodby


Talk to me
Like I am the only person in the world that will hear you
Talk to me like I am the only person that will understand
Tell me you dreams your nightmares your thoughts
Tell me how much you love me.

Hold my hand
Like I am more than just a friend
Like you’ll be able to hold me back
And lead me when I am lost
Hold my hand like we are going on one last journey
And never coming back

Hug me
Like you never going to hug any one again
Like they do on the films,
When they’re really in love
Hug me like I am the last, your only and true love
And then never let me go

Touch me
Like I am a sculpture waited to be moulded
A body waiting to be felt
Feel the softness of my skin
The sweet dampness of my sweat

Kiss me
Like you have never kisses before
Like you’re pouring out your heart in one kiss
Kiss me like you mean to love me
Kiss me like death.
Kiss me so the breaths sweeps out of me
And I am knocked backwards off my feet,
Kiss me so that all that I regret is gone
And all that is left is you.

2010, ഏപ്രിൽ 28, ബുധനാഴ്‌ച

വഴിവക്കിലെ മരത്തില്‍ നിന്നും പൊഴിയുന്ന ഓരോ ഇലയും നോക്കിനില്‍ക്കെ മനസ്സിലോടിയെത്തിയത് ഹൃദയത്തിന്റെ കോണിലെങ്ങോ മയങ്ങിക്കിടക്കുന്ന സുഹൃത്തുക്കളെയാണ്. എന്റെ ജീവിതത്തിലൂടെ കടന്നുപോയ ഒരുപാട് സുഹൃത്തുക്കള്‍... വിദ്യാഭ്യാസമായിട്ടും ജോലിയായിട്ടും മറ്റുമൊക്കെ അകലങ്ങളിലേക്കു പോകേണ്ടിവന്നവര്‍... ഒരു ഫോണ്‍ സംഭാഷണത്തിലും ആശംസാകാര്‍ഡുകളിലുമൊക്കെയായി ഒതുങ്ങുന്നവര്‍... പിന്നെയും വന്നു പുതിയ കൂട്ടുകാര്‍... തിരക്കിനിടയില്‍ സംസാരിക്കാന്‍ കഴിയാതെയും, വിളിക്കാന്‍ ശ്രമിക്കാതെയും അകന്നുപോയവര്‍... ഇലകള്‍ പൊഴിയും പോലെ... ഇല പൊഴിയും പോലെ ജീവിതത്തില്‍ നിന്നും പൊഴിഞ്ഞുപോവുകയല്ലെ...................കാലവും ദൂരവും ജീവിതസാഹചര്യങ്ങളും നമ്മളെ വേ൪പെടുത്താ൯ ശ്രമിക്കുമ്പോളും
അതിനെയെല്ലാം അതിജീവിച്ച് നമ്മുടെ
സൗഹൃദം മായാതെ മങ്ങാതെ നിലനില്ക്കണമെന്ന് ഞാന്‍ ആഗ്രഹിക്കുന്നു
സുഹൃത്തുക്കളായി തുടരാം................

സ്നേഹം എന്നും എവിടെയും വിലപ്പെട്ടതാണ്.!
കൊടുത്താല് കിട്ടും.!കിട്ടണം ഇത്തിരി വൈകി
യാണെങ്കിലും കിട്ടുക തന്നെ ചെയ്യും.....

ആ വെര്‍പാടിന്റെ ദുഖത്തില്‍ നാം ഓര്‍ക്കും

കാലം നമ്മളെ പരസ്പരം പരിചയ പെടുത്തി ... അതിലൂടെ നമ്മള്‍ പരസ്പരം അറിഞ്ഞു , മനസിലാക്കി...അടുത്തു.. സുഹൃത്ത്ക്കള്‍ ആയി...സൗഹൃദം പങ്കുവച്ചു....
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എന്നാല്‍ നാം മനസിലാക്കേണ്ടി ഇരിക്കുന്നു , എത്ര നാള്‍ ...??എത്ര നാള്‍ നമ്മള്‍ ഒരുമിച്ചുണ്ടാകുമെന്ന്‌...?

പിരിയും ഒരു നാള്‍ , നമ്മള്‍ എല്ലാവരും... പിരിയണം.. !! , അകലണം...!! അത്‌ കാലത്തിന്റെ തീരുമാനം...

ആ വെര്‍പാടിന്റെ ദുഖത്തില്‍ നാം ഓര്‍ക്കും എന്തിന്‌ നാം ഇത്രെയും അടുത്തുവെന്ന്‌...മനസിലാക്കിയെന്ന്‌... , പരസ്പരം സ്നേഹിച്ചുവെന്ന്‌..."""

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നിങ്ങള് ഒരാളെ പ്രണയിക്കുന്നു എങ്കില്................ നിങ്ങള് കരുതും അവളാണ് ലോകത്തിലെ ഏറ്റവും ആകര്‍ഷകമായ വസ്തു എന്ന്.............. അത് പ്രണയമല്ല. വെറും ഭ്രമമാണ്......
നിങ്ങള് ഒരാളെ പ്രണയിക്കുന്നു എങ്കില് നിങ്ങള് കരുതും അവളുടെ എല്ലാ വാശികളും അംഗീകരിക്കും എന്ന് ...... അത് പ്രണയമല്ല ...... അത് വിട്ടു വീഴ്ചയാണ്........
മാത്രമല്ല ആ സമയം അവളുമായ് വഴക്കിടുന്നത് പോലും അവളെ വേദനിപ്പിക്കും
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ജമാല്‍ :- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ ബാപ്പയും ഉമ്മയും അറിയാന്‍ ജമാല്‍ എഴുത്ത്. ഗള്‍ഫില്‍ വന്നിട്ട് ഇന്നേക്ക് അഞ്ചു വര്‍ഷം തികയുന്നു. അടുത്ത മാസം നാട്ടില്‍ വരുന്നു. കഴിഞ്ഞ അഞ്ചു വര്‍ഷം കൊണ്ട് വിസക്ക് വേണ്ടി വാങ്ങിച്ച കടം വീട്ടാനും പിന്നെ ഒരിക്കല്‍ നാട്ടില്‍ വന്നു പോരാനും സാധിച്ചു എന്നതൊഴിച്ചാല്‍ സമ്പാദ്യമായി ഒന്നുമില്ല. ഇനി ഗള്‍ഫിലേക്ക് ഞാന്‍ തിരിച്ചു പോരുന്നില്ല. അദ്ധ്വാനിക്കാനുള്ള ആരോഗ്യം ഉള്ളത് കൊണ്ട് നാട്ടില്‍ വല്ല കൂലിപ്പണിക്കും പോകാം. നിങ്ങളുടെ അഭിപ്രായം മറുപടിയില്‍ അറിയിക്കുമല്ലോ. എന്ന് സ്വന്തം ജമാല്‍.

വീട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും:- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ മകന്‍ ജമാല്‍ അറിയാന്‍ ബാപ്പ എഴുതുന്നത്‌
കത്ത് കിട്ടി. നീ വരുന്നു എന്നറിഞ്ഞതില്‍ വളരെ സന്തോഷിക്കുന്നു. ബാക്കി വിവരങ്ങള്‍ ഉമ്മ എഴുതും. ജമാല്‍ അറിയാന്‍ ഉമ്മ എഴുതുന്നത്‌. നമ്മുടെ വീട് ചോര്‍ന്നൊലിക്കുന്ന വിവരം നിനക്കറിയാലോ. ഓടു മാറ്റാന്‍ ആശാരി വന്നപ്പോള്‍ പട്ടികയും കഴുക്കോലും മാറ്റണമെന്നാണ് പറഞ്ഞത്. ഇനി മരത്തിനു പൈസ ചിലവാക്കുന്നതിലും നല്ലത് വാര്‍ക്കുന്നതാണെന്നാണ് എല്ലാവരുടെയും അഭിപ്രായം. എന്തായാലും പുര നന്നാക്കാതെ പറ്റില്ലല്ലോ. ഇവിടെ വന്നു കൂലിപ്പണിക്ക് പോയാല്‍ നിന്നെക്കൊണ്ട് പുര നന്നാക്കാന്‍ സാധിക്കുമോ. ഉമ്മ പറഞ്ഞെന്നേയുള്ളൂ. ഇനി എല്ലാം നിന്‍റെ ഇഷ്ടം. എന്ന് സ്വന്തം ഉമ്മ.

ജമാല്‍ :- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ ഉമ്മ അറിയാന്‍ ജമാല്‍ എഴുത്ത്
ഞാന്‍ ഈ മരുഭൂമിയില്‍ വന്നിട്ട് ഇന്നേക്ക് പത്തു വര്‍ഷം കഴിഞ്ഞു. അടുത്ത മാസം നാട്ടിലേക്ക് വരാന്‍ ഉദ്ദേശിക്കുന്നു. ഏതായാലും ഇക്കഴിഞ്ഞ മൂന്നു നാല് വര്‍ഷം കൊണ്ട് നമ്മുടെ വീട് പുതുക്കിപ്പണിയാന്‍ സാധിച്ചു. അതിന്‍റെ കടങ്ങളൊക്കെ വീട്ടി. ഇനി നാട്ടില്‍ ടാക്സി ഓടിച്ചു കഴിയാമെന്നാണ് ഞാന്‍ വിജാരിക്കുന്നത്. നമ്മുടെ നിത്യച്ചിലവിനുള്ള വക അതില്‍നിന്ന് കിട്ടും. ഈ മരുഭൂമിയിലെ ജീവതം എനിക്ക് മടുത്തു. നാട്ടില്‍വന്നു മക്കളോടൊപ്പം കഴിയണം. ഉമ്മയുടെ അഭിപ്രായം അറിയിക്കുമല്ലോ.

വീട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും:- പ്രിയ മകന്‍ ജമാല്‍ അറിയാന്‍ ഉമ്മ എഴുത്ത്
നിന്‍റെ എഴുത്ത് വായിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ ഉമ്മാക്ക് സങ്കടമായി. എന്‍റെ കുട്ടി ചെറുപ്പം മുതല്‍ ഈ കുടുംബത്തിനു വേണ്ടി അദ്ധ്വാനിക്കാന്‍ തുടങ്ങിയതാണ്‌. എങ്കിലും ഒരു കാര്യംകൂടെ ഉമ്മ ആവശ്യപ്പെടുകയാണ്. സൈനബക്ക് വയസ്സ് ഇരുപതു കഴിഞ്ഞു. അവളെ ഒരുത്തന്‍റെ കൂടെ പറഞ്ഞയക്കണ്ടേ. അതിനു നീ എന്തെങ്കിലും വഴി കണ്ടിട്ടുണ്ടോ. അവളുടെ നിക്കാഹു കഴിഞ്ഞു കണ്ടിട്ട് ഉമ്മാക്ക് മരിച്ചാലും വേണ്ടില്ല. നിന്നെ വിഷമിക്കാനല്ല ഉമ്മ ഇതെഴുതിയത്. ഇനി എല്ലാം നിന്‍റെ ഇഷ്ടം. എന്ന് സ്വന്തം ഉമ്മ.
ജമാല്‍ :- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ ഉമ്മയും സുഹറയും അറിയാന്‍ ജമാല്‍ എഴുത്ത്
ഞാന്‍ ഗള്‍ഫില്‍ വന്നിട്ട് കഴിഞ്ഞ ജനുവരിയിലേക്ക് പതിനാലു വര്‍ഷം കഴിഞ്ഞു. ഇവിടുത്തെ ജീവിതം മടുത്തു. ഇനി തുടരാന്‍ വയ്യ. ഞാന്‍ വിസ കാന്‍സല്‍ ചെയ്തു പോരുകയാണ്. കഴിഞ്ഞ നാല് വര്‍ഷം കൊണ്ട് സൈനബയുടെ നിക്കാഹു പടച്ചവന്‍റെ കൃപയാല്‍ നമ്മള്‍ ഉദേശിച്ചതിലും ഭംഗിയായി നടത്താന്‍ സാധിച്ചു. അവര്‍ ആവശ്യപ്പെട്ട പോലെ അറുപതു പവനും രണ്ടു ലക്ഷം രൂപയും കൊടുത്തതിന്‍റെ കടം മുഴുവനും വീട്ടി. ഇനി നാട്ടില്‍വന്നു വല്ല ഡ്രൈവര്‍ പണിയോ മറ്റോ എടുത്തു കഴിയാമെന്നാണ് വിജാരിക്കുന്നത്. വലിയ ദേഹാദ്ധ്വാനമുള്ള പണി ഒന്നും ഇനി ചെയ്യാന്‍ കഴിയില്ല. പ്രഷറും ഷുഗറും ഒക്കെ ആവശ്യത്തില്‍ കൂടുതല്‍ ഉണ്ട്. ഇവിടുന്നു ചികിത്സിക്കാന്‍ നിന്നാല്‍ പിന്നെ കിട്ടുന്ന ശമ്പളം മുഴുവനും അതിനു കൊടുക്കേണ്ടി വരും. ഏതായാലും ഇനി നാട്ടില്‍ വന്നിട്ട് ആയുര്‍വേദചികിത്സ വല്ലതും നോക്കാം. കത്ത് ചുരുക്കട്ടെ എന്ന് സ്വന്തം ജമാല്‍
വീട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും:- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ എന്‍റെ ജമാല്‍ അറിയാന്‍ ഉമ്മ എഴുതുന്നത്‌.
നിന്‍റെ കത്ത് വായിച്ചു ഉമ്മ ഒരു പാട് കരഞ്ഞു. ഇനി ഏതായാലും നീ തിരിച്ചു പോകണ്ട. പിന്നെ സുഹറക്ക് എന്തോ എഴുതാന്‍ ഉണ്ടെന്നു പറഞ്ഞു....... പ്രിയത്തില്‍ എന്‍റെ ഇക്കാക്ക അറിയാന്‍ സുഹറ എഴുത്ത്. ഇന്ന് വരെ ഞാന്‍ എനിക്ക് വേണ്ടി ഒന്നും നിങ്ങളോട് ആവശ്യപ്പെട്ടിട്ടില്ല. എന്നാല്‍ ഇപ്പൊ ഒരു കാര്യം പറയാതെ വയ്യ. ജലാലിന്‍റെ കല്യാണം കഴിഞ്ഞതോടെ ഉമ്മാക്ക് ഇപ്പൊ എന്നെ കണ്ടു കൂടാതായി. ഇപ്പൊ എല്ലാത്തിനും ചെറിയ മരുകകള്‍ മതി. പിന്നെ ഈ വീട് ജലാലിന്‍റെ പേരില്‍ എഴുതിക്കൊടുക്കാന്‍ പോവാണെന്നു ഉമ്മ പറയുന്നത് കേട്ടു. നമുക്ക് സ്വന്തമായി ഒരു കൂരയെങ്കിലും വേണ്ടെ ജമാലിക്കാ. അത് ഇക്കാക്ക് നാട്ടില്‍ നിന്നുണ്ടാക്കാന്‍ സാധിക്കുമോ. കമ്പിയുടെയും സിമന്റിന്‍റെയും പിന്നെ ഇഴ്പ്പോഴത്തെ പണിക്കൂലിയും ഒക്കെ ഇക്കാക്ക് അറിയാമല്ലോ. നാളെ മക്കളെയും കൊണ്ട് ഇറങ്ങേണ്ടി വന്നാല്‍ നമ്മള്‍ എവിടെ പോകും. ഞാന്‍ എന്‍റെ സങ്കടം പറഞ്ഞെന്നെയുള്ളൂ. ഇനി എല്ലാം നിങ്ങളുടെ ഇഷ്ടം.

ജമാല്‍ :- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ സുഹറ അറിയുന്നതിന്.
എന്‍റെ പ്രവാസ ജീവിതത്തിനു ഈ മാസത്തോടെ പത്തൊന്‍പതു വര്‍ഷം പൂര്‍ത്തിയായി. നീ ആഗ്രഹിച്ചതിലും നല്ലൊരു വീട് കഴിഞ്ഞ നാല് വര്‍ഷത്തെ എന്‍റെ അദ്ധ്വാനം കൊണ്ട് ഉണ്ടാക്കുവാന്‍ നമുക്ക് സാധിച്ചു. കയ്യില്‍ ഇനി പൈസ ഒന്നും ബാക്കിയില്ല. കമ്പനിയില്‍ നിന്നും പിരിഞ്ഞു പോരുമ്പോള്‍ മൂന്നു ലക്ഷം രൂപ കിട്ടും. അത് മാത്രമാണ് ആകെയുള്ള സമ്പാദ്യം. ‍ എന്നാലും തിരിഞ്ഞു നോക്കുമ്പോള്‍ ഇത്രയൊക്കെ ചെയ്യാന്‍ സാധിച്ചല്ലോ എന്ന സംതൃപ്തിയുണ്ട്. ഇനി ഇവിടെ തുടരാന്‍ വയ്യ. നീണ്ട പത്തൊന്‍പതു വര്‍ഷവും ജീവിതം എന്തെന്ന് അറിഞ്ഞിട്ടില്ല. ഇനി നാട്ടില്‍ വന്നു ഒന്ന് സ്വസ്ഥമായി നിന്നോടും മക്കളോടും ഒപ്പം കഴിയണം. ഈ മാസാവസാനത്തോടെ ഞാന്‍ ജോലിയില്‍ നിന്ന് പിരിയുകയാണ്. ശേഷം നേരില്‍.

വീട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും:- പ്രിയത്തില്‍ ഇക്കാക്ക അറിയാന്‍ സുഹറ എഴുത്ത്
കത്ത് വായിച്ചു ഒരു പാട് സന്തോഷമായി. ഇപ്പോഴെങ്കിലും ഗള്‍ഫ്‌ ജീവിതം മതിയാക്കാന്‍ തോന്നിയല്ലോ. പിന്നെ മോന്‍ ഒരു കാര്യം എഴുതാന്‍ പറഞ്ഞു. അവനു എന്ജിനീയറിങ്ങിനു പോകാനാണ് താല്‍പര്യം. കോയമ്പത്തൂര്‍ അമൃത ഇന്‍സ്റ്റിട്ട്യൂട്ടില്‍ നിന്നും അഡ്മിഷന്‍ കാര്‍ഡ്‌ വന്നിട്ടുണ്ട്. ആദ്യത്തെ വര്‍ഷം നാല് ലക്ഷം രൂപ വേണം. പിന്നെ ഓരോ വര്‍ഷവും മൂന്നു ലക്ഷം മതിയാകും. തവണകളായിട്ടു കൊടുത്താല്‍ മതി എന്നാണു അവന്‍ പറയുന്നത്. അവിടെ പഠിക്കുന്നതൊക്കെ ഗള്‍ഫുകാരുടെ മക്കളാണത്രേ. ഈ മുപ്പതാംതിക്കുള്ളില്‍ ചേരണം എന്നാണു അവന്‍ പറയുന്നത്. ഇക്ക കത്ത് കിട്ടിയാല്‍ ഉടനെ മറുപടി അയക്കുമല്ലോ. സ്നേഹപൂര്‍വ്വം സുഹറ.
മകന്‍റെ എഞ്ചിനീയറിംഗ് പഠനത്തിത്തിനും മകളുടെ വിവാഹത്തിനുമായി പിന്നെയും വര്‍ഷങ്ങള്‍ ചിലവിട്ടു നീണ്ട ഇരുപത്തിയേഴു വര്‍ഷത്തെ പ്രവാസ ജീവിതം മതിയാക്കി സ്വന്തം സമ്പാദ്യങ്ങളായ പ്രഷറും ഷുഗറും നടുവ് വേദനയും അള്‍സറുമായി ജമാല്‍ നാട്ടിലേക്ക് വിമാനം കയറുമ്പോള്‍ പുതിയ ആവലാതികളുമായി വന്ന കത്ത് അയാളുടെ പോക്കറ്റില്‍ ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നു. ജമാല്‍ജീവിതത്തില്‍ ആദ്യമായി തുറന്നു വായിക്കാത്ത കത്ത്........

2010, ഏപ്രിൽ 24, ശനിയാഴ്‌ച

THIS IS OUR FESTVAL " THE GREAT GREAT THRISSUR PURAM"


Thrissur is best known for its mammoth Pooram Festival, which is the most colourful and spectacular temple festival of Kerala. Thrissur Pooram, attracts large masses of devotees and spectators form all parts of the State and even outside.The legends and myths behind each festival of Kerala are many, varied and equally interesting. Since the word pooram literally means a group or a meeting, it was believed that every year the dynastic gods and goddesses of neighbouring province met together for a day of celebration. This usually happened on the pooram asterism of one of the spring months.

The gods and their entourage arrived for the meeting on colourfully decorated tuskers. Even today, the converging of these divine processions at the festival venue is an awe inspiring sight. The pooram draws to a close with mind-blowing fireworks displays in the evening and in the wee hours of the next morning.

Celebrated Malayalam month of Medom (April-May) in every year.it consists of processions of richly caparisoned elephants from various neigbouring temples to the Vadakunnatha temple, Thrissur. The most impressions are those from the Krishna temple at Thiruvambadi and the Devi temple at Paramekkavu. Pooram is an assemblage of suburban deities before the presiding deity at the Siva temple in down town Thrissur. The Pooram celebration is held at the Thekkinkadu grounds.

Thrissurpooram was introduced by Sakthan Thampuran (1775- 1790), , the Maharaja of erstwhile Kochi state. The Pooram festival is also well-known for the magnificent display of fireworks. It is celebrated by two rival groups representing the two divisions of Thrissur Paramekkavu and Thiruvambadi vying with each other in making the display of fireworks grander and more colourful. Each group is allowed to display a maximum of fifteen elephants and all efforts are made by each party to secure the best elephants in South India and the most artistic parasols, several kind which are raised on the elephants during the display. The commissioning of elephants and parasols is done in the utmost secrecy by each party to excel the other. Commencing in the early hours of the morning, the celebrations last till the break of dawn, the next day.

Of the rival groups participating in the Pooram, the most important ones are those from Pramekkavu and Thiruvambadi. At the close of the Pooram both these groups enter the temple through the western gate and come out through the southern gate to array themselves, face to face, one from the round and other form the Municipal Office road. This spectacle is highly enchanting. Although this grand festival is known as Thrissur Pooram, it is in fact the conclusion of the eight -day Utsavam of nine temples.The procession of the Thiruvambadi Pooram to the grounds of Vadakkunnatha Temple and back is not only important, but also quite enlivening. The marvelous as well as magical effect of the Panchavadyam, a combination of five percussion and wind instruments, is to be felt and enjoyed.

Thousands of people from all walks of life gather at the Thekinkadu maidanam at Thrissur to celebrate the pooram or festival. The festival highlights include among other things a spectacular pageant of 30 caparisoned elephants and Kudamattom, a competition in the swift rhythmic changing of brightly coloured and sequined parasols. Dazzling fireworks, and a variety of musical performances including the Chendamelam and the indispensable Panchavadyam are also conducted. The Thrissur pooram, arguably the most famous festival of Kerala, is a heady mixture of pomp and pageantry. 2010 Pooram is scheduled for April 24.












2010, ഏപ്രിൽ 22, വ്യാഴാഴ്‌ച

I can't say It.


I know there's lots of instances where people are hesitant or have issues with saying "I love you" to their lovers, s/o's, boyfriends, girlfriends, spouses etc. But I think something is wrong with me. I can't say I love you to my family members. I don't know if it's because I'm Korean and my parents never raised us in such a setting-- and that isn't to say they aren't loving parents, they're great people. My dad isn't anywhere near the "mean, cold" type of Korean fathers. He's pretty "Americanized" in terms of his traditions, values, etc etc. My mom is in between. But all in all I know they love me. I know they love me and my brother and I love them to death. I don't love anyone more than my family...but we don't say I love you to each other. I want to so bad. But I can't. I know. You must think I'm psycho or pathetic, it's just a few simple words and it's not like I don't mean it but why can't I get it to roll off my tongue? I feel so pathetic I wrote this little letter to God.

Lord-- I wonder almost every single day why you made it so that certain things could never be expressed, whether that be by words, paintings, music, etc. I wish I could save everyone and everything, even myself. I wish I could save myself from falling into deep plunder where I only bask myself in anger, fear, anxiety, hatred, loneliness and frustration. I wish I could save the people I love most--my family, from falling into their habitual sins just as I do mine. If I could pick, I'd want to save them first because I would rather suffer and see them all happy instead of the other way around. I wish I could save my dad from drowning back and forth between himself and his inexorable mind. I wish I could save my brother from feeling helpless and getting lost into self-depletion as many people this age do. I wish I could save my mama from feelings of despair and fear from burden, and losing control. I wish I could save myself from hating myself for not being able to help any of them on my own accord, for beating myself up for feeling inadequate as a daughter and sister and person. But mostly I wish that I was even half the person was wishing I am right now; I wish that I could let these people know that I love them more than all of the obstacles I've overcome. This writing all feels purposeless and all talk because it's true. When the one's I want to know won't know, what's the point of writing this anyways? Because I am a failing person who can't express my emotions to people that are especially close. To people I love. Dear God I wonder why you made this such a challenge for me. I wonder why I can be the friendliest person to others or I can chalk up a conversation with strangers in the elevator, but I can't do what matters. When me expressing my concern and love could possibly save us. Sometimes I am bitter at You because You know I always complain about the same thing: why aren't there enough words, enough ways, enough methods to get my inner most emotions and thoughts OUT? And in the end, all of this makes no sense...again...because it's wrapped up in this blog text box...and my heart is nothing close to replicating a mere technological blog text box where I push submit.

how good it makes us feel


I have never felt as much pain in my heart as I did during my fifteenth birthday. I had been looking forward to that day for as long as I could remember – I was the last one out to turn fifteen and my first love wanted to see me. I had been waiting for him the whole day and I was so curious about how he was going to surprise me. The sun was slowly fading and soon it was hidden by beautiful pink clouds – the kinds that only show themselves during lukewarm summer nights. I met up with what I thought was the love of my life and he surprised me, he shocked me so bad I lost my breath. And in that very moment I honestly believed I was going to die. When I finally was able to breathe again, without knowing what I was about to do, I ran away – from the love of my life.

I just kept on running not knowing where I was about to go, but I found a park bench and I sat down for a while. I tried to think clearly, but I couldn’t, what had just happened? Why couldn’t I breathe? Had I been running? Why? I tried to remember what had happened, and then suddenly a lightening rushed through my chest and I remembered what had just happened – it was my fifteenth birthday and my first true love had left me.

I don’t know for how long I was sitting at that park bench, but I remember I watched people walking by – they all seemed so happy, how was that possible? I heard the sound of my phone ringing time and time again, but I didn’t have the strength to answer, I didn’t have the power to move a single muscle. I was thinking about how to get home, if maybe I would have to go to the hospital, though the pounding pain in my chest never seemed to give in. I was thinking and thinking and I found it all rather ironic – me, Isabelle, had been dumped on my fifteenth birthday, what a goddamn karma. I had never been God’s greatest child, but I never figured it would turn out to be this bad.

All of a sudden I saw my dad standing right in front of me, when I saw his face I knew that he knew what had happened. He grabbed my hand and led me to the car which was parked a few blocks away. When I came home I went straight to bed, where I spent the following days. I wanted to know why my first love had left me, I wanted to hear his explanation and I wanted to know exactly what he had told me the day he left me, because I couldn’t remember anything.

It’s truly impossible to put words on the pain I felt inside of me, but the pain never gave in, it just kept on stealing the insignificant energy I had left. The pain burned through my chest, tore my heart to pieces and my crying never seemed to come to an end. Time was running away and every day I was thinking to myself “Tomorrow the pain will be gone”, but it never was. Until a chilly autumn day in the middle of November, I unexpectedly caught myself thinking there wasn’t anything scratching like barbed wire around my heart – the pain was gone. The memories were still there though as well as the fear, but the actual pain inside my body had disappeared.

The thing is that there isn’t the moment when I was dumped in literal sense that’s putting a strain on me today. It’s when I think about the pain I feel sad, or rather scared, because if I felt like that then – then my heart will stop beating for real when the person who gives me a reason to live leaves me. I am going to cry so hard I’m not going to be able to breathe and I won’t be able to calm down or even control myself.

I think that’s exactly why we are afraid of love. Because in truth been told we do know that it’s possible to actually love someone too much, we know the possibility does exist. Isn’t that crazy – to love someone too much? We also do know love always ends unfortunate. Even if love lasts a whole lifetime there comes a time when we are torn apart by death, which frightens me a lot.

But then we got to think like this as well, even how miserably love seems to end it doesn’t mean the ending reveals the history we’ve shared together. Even though love sometimes hurt really badly we also have to remember how good it makes us feel. It makes us feel free, like we can live forever. Love is like a movie – you cannot dislike a wonderful movie with a bad ending – it’s just not possible to feel sad and angry about the bad ending if the rest of the movie felt like a dream.


to my best friend.
im in love with you, it happened abruptly and out of nowhere but nonetheless it was clear as day while i was laying in you arms that i am indeed in love with you. you proposed to me when we were three years old, and i turned you down. i ran away from you with hot tears of embarrassment fleeting down my face hoping to never see you again. but yet here i am. fifteen years later. in love with you. you have no idea, and well to be honest up until now i myself have been in denial about it. im scared. im scared to lose our friendship. im scared to lose my best friend, my trustee, and my cuddle buddy. im sitting here writing this, not even planning on doing anything with it, just getting it out of my head. finally making it real, enabling myself from further lying to myself about it. i cant imagine ever telling you how i feel. i continue to torture myself with your presence, i should end our friendship right here and now, and finally free my self from my self inflicted torment. but i cant. i cant imagine my life without you in it. i cant imagine not being able to laugh with you about the air head things i did today or make fun of how immature you are. im terrified because i know what it feels like to have your best friend be in love with you, but to just simply not reciprocate the feeling. i now officially know what it feels like to be on both sides, and let me tell ya their both miserable. thats the funny thing about love, you cant control it. you cant control who you love, or when you love them. love has seemingly gone rogue. or has it always been?